damn you

from when i started till now
absurd in a way

i saw a familiar face..how....umm......oh...ohhhhhh...ughh...oh shit
sad it took me a while

as its happening im not thinking
im feeling
the moment before it happens, there is the eye connection and she(s) usually bites her bottom lip and closes her eyes, bites harder and releases her breath slowly then she opens her eyes and that is why i do what i do
the only time i can really make eye contact

i cant help it im used to the walking away

there is a brick wall for a reason? not a bitter brick wall...just a simple brick wall
i have to think for a bit
ok
i came here fleeing my destruction
i became who i always wanted to be
and the moment i feel a tug back i run
forward
no time to look back

or love


right now its work, career, and the simple adoration of a mystery
its ok to look from afar

she will find a guy who gives her chills and stops her in her tracks
breathless
as much as i wish it were me, i cant commit to that
i want her, nameless joy
in every rotten way, i want her

but

i hold back...dumbass
i look away....idiot

this is why i occupy my time as much as i possibly can, keeping busy as they say
they walk away when the time is right
she is the only one i wouldnt want to walk away